Bella got a haircut

After fighting with Bella every single morning for the past year, I d took decided to take Bell to get her hair cut. I took her to Cookie Cutters. It's a really cute salon especially for kids. I almost chickened out right before, but we took off 5-6 inches! I am so happy with how it turned out. I love the A-Line layered above the shoulder bob. I think it totally fits her personality.It's also ten times easier to do. I love it. I think she loves it too. Bella can we trade hair, please?

Don't Judge a Book by it's Cover

Have you heard of or seen Susan Boyle? She was on Britain's Got Talent. WOW. I was totally floored. If you haven't seen or heard her perform, take a minute to watch this video.

She brought chills up and down my entire body and started to tear up.

Things I didn't Expect with Twins

I have really enjoyed being the mom of twin girls. Each new milestone with them is so much fun and interesting. Here are some things I didn't expect with my twins:

1. That it would take me 8 months to be able to distinguish each baby by their own cry.
2. That I would be more amused than overwhelmed with them starting to crawl.
3. That they would have such different personalities.
4. They switch certain traits from time to time. You can't just say, "she's the fussy one, or she's the demanding one."
5. That strangers would constantly be asking if they were twins. ("No, they just happen to be the same age and dressed alike....."
6. That identical twins could have their unique look (at least to mom & dad).
7. That identical twins could have different cowlick patterns!
8. That they would grow and develop so differently with some things and so identically with others.
9. That my 2 year old would love them both as much as she does.
10. That nursing both wasn't as freakish or awkward as I thought it would be. I remember looking through pregnancy books when I was pregnant with Bella and seeing pictures. I showed Levi and thought how weird it was. I never thought that would be me. I never thought it would be possible.
11. That two little babies would sometimes be more convenient than one. (no wasting any baby food, because they share) I can't seem to think of any others at the moment....
12. That they would wear headbands only 2% of the time because it is a lot of work to keep two on.
13. That it would be hard to keep them in matching outfits during the day...blow-outs, food stains, etc.
14. I didn't realize how much I'd rely on my stroller to go ANYWHERE by MYSELF.
15. I didn't think I'd actually NOT mind going out of the house as much with 3 kids 2 and under. It's too much of a hassle. When I do go out by myself though, people are usually so helpful and sweet. At my brother's track meet, a man and his wife carried and pushed my stroller for 15 minutes to help me get it through bumpy grass and dirt. I had all three girls in the stroller. It was heavy.
16. That I would secretly hope to have another set of twins someday.

struggling

The past month or two I have really been struggling! I am usually a happy and motivated person. But the last two weeks especially have been tough. I have felt extreme highs and lows, lack of drive, inadequacy, tired, worn out, overwhelmed, etc. I kept thinking, "What is my problem???" I talked to Levi and to Levi's mom about how I was feeling.I then realized maybe it was post-partum depression. I read about it online and it makes sense. I think my body is still trying to get back to "normal" from having the twins. I still haven't started my period yet and nursing two babies definitely takes it's toll.

So, I asked Levi for a blessing and it has really helped. Little by little I think I am coming out of it and am feeling more like myself. I think I need to not be so hard on myself and not expect perfection all the time. Has anyone every experienced post-partum depression? What did you do to feel better?

thanks!